I got pulled over today! Oh how I wish I could tell you I was the model citizen and did nothing wrong. Unfortunately, I did. I was speeding. Then to top it all off when the officer asked me why I was speeding I couldn’t even think of a good answer right away so what did I say?
“Because I was in a hurry.”
Yep, that was my brilliant answer! I wish you could have seen the look on his face. Poor kid must have thought I had lost my mind. I’m sure he was thinking, “Here you go ma’am, a chance to explain yourself and give some lofty answer of a crisis that needs your attention NOW! But, no, you just spit out the ugly truth.”
You see, I have prayed for deliverance from the sins that tripped me up for so many years. Not only has God delivered me He has made me extra sensitive to them now.
One of the biggies for me used to be…lying. Eek, I’m so sorry if I have just offended every high regard you’ve ever had for me. It’s true though and if nothing else I have to be honest. You see in high school, and probably even before, I learned to lie as a survival mechanism.
It started out as me telling the truth and no one believing me. Then it switched to telling people what they wanted to hear to avoid repercussions.
Quickly, I learned I was pretty darned good at it.
Let me tell you, it’s not something I’m proud of now. But, it’s also something I refuse to be held down in condemnation by either. The Lord convicted me of it a LONG time ago and He and I have dealt with it.
As we walked through that valley together, I prayed He would make me so sensitive to my sin I would be able to spot it coming a mile away! He did that in abundance.
I’ve been asked before why I’m so sensitive to certain things such as cursing. You guessed it, I asked God to make that one like fingernails on a chalkboard to me as I’d become so numb to it. I’m not sure you want to know this much truth from a Christian writer but I used to throw the “F” word around more than most sailors.
I remember crying out to God as those old habits kept creeping up in my life and feeling powerless against them. Not even recognizing them until after the fact due to how numb I’d become to them.
Then, I gave up.
I said, “Here they are God – I’m tired of trying so hard to be good. There’s no way I can do this on my own, I’ve tried. Do what you will in my life. Have your way with me. Please make me so sensitive to these sins that I have no choice but to recognize them and turn from them.”
The more I humbled myself before the Lord the more He lifted me up. I finally felt free of the condemnation of my sins and ready to move forward.
I’m so far from perfect and I’ll be the first to admit it. But you know what? It’s okay. I’m so grateful for the sensitivity to the Holy Spirit I’ve discovered. I know whatever new things the enemy throws at me now, God’s got me!
In case you’re struggling with this fact I want to remind you. God’s got you! Repeat it often to yourself. He has your back!
Now it’s your turn. In what ways are you progressing in your walk with the Lord? Are there old sins trying to creep back up in your life? Leave a comment and let’s hold each other up in prayer!
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