A day in the life a writer

As the sun peeks over the horizon the ideas brewing in my mind all night flow onto paper with complete ease! There’s barely time to keep up as the words simply spill out and mesh together.

Okay, now that we’ve walked down fantasy lane how about we get real with each other.

My writing almost NEVER works like what we just talked about. Seriously next to never!!

More often than not my day starts out with grand intentions that last all of about 10 minutes. Sometimes less! You see I wear many hats. Writer is just one of many!

So as I put one fire out and head to the next I scribble notes on whatever I can find. Most of the time that includes blank envelopes, the notes app on my phone and even in the dust of the dashboard of the pickup. Hey, a girls gotta get those ideas out quick before they vacate my mind, possibly for good!

Speaking of writing ideas, my best ideas often come in the shower! Do you know how hard it is to take notes in the shower? Anyone else ever have this issue? I’ve learned to keep a notebook handy for right afterwards but would love to hear if anyone else has something that works for them.

Okay, so now I have all sorts of ideas flowing so it must be time to write, right?

I sit down at my computer and this blank white screen stares back at me. But wait, I have ideas, why aren’t they coming out when I need them? For me it’s often to many ideas and trying to narrow them down to something at a given time.

I’ve got the ideas narrowed down and start hen pecking a few words out to silence the flashing cursor of judgement! Wait, the words are starting to come easier now. I’m not sure they make sense but they’re coming easier at least.

Oh the joy, things are starting to work again. The keyboard can barely keep up with how fast I’m trying to type the words.

And then it happens! The front door creaks open and I can hear my beloved holler across the house, “Woman, I need your help, quick!” Curses, it all comes to a screeching halt.

Ranch life never goes by a schedule, EVER! So I stop what I’m doing and head out the door to help hubby move a tractor, doctor a calf and unload feed. Might as well go ahead and get supper in the crockpot while I’m stopped too, right?

It’ll come back easy right? I mean it’s already started and everything was flowing so beautifully. Shoot I’ll just pick this up and finish it with grace and ease! Alright, I’m going to have to go with grace as it sure isn’t coming with ease again. Ugh!!

Maybe some music will get it all going again. Yeah, that’ll help and while I’m waiting for that to kick in I might as well switch the laundry quick right?

Here we go, let’s try again. What, my word count is at 200? Did the computer devour everything I wrote before my blessed husband walked in the house? It had to have as I know it was there. Well, I thought it was anyway.

Graphics, yeah, graphics. I’ll work on those for awhile and that’ll pull this whole thing together. Oh look a cute kitten video! Eek, shut it down quick.

I imagine what it must be like to be a writer in some solitary log cabin in the woods. How amazing would that be?!?!

But you know that’s not me. I squeeze in writing late at night after everyone else is asleep. Many of my first drafts are done on my notes app with talk to text on my phone as we haul hay. Way to often it takes me several days to get a blog post fully ready as I do it in 5 minute chunks of time.

There’s nothing perfect about my writing style but I love to write so I’ve learned to make it work. Not sure it works for my readers but hey let’s focus on that grace again, okay?

So off to bed I go with my trusty notepad beside my bed for those ideas that come at the most opportune times! Ready to start the whole joyous process all over again.


Grace to Overcome our Weakness

Writing is hard!

I don’t mean the kind where you’re writing in your journal and is between you and God. There’s often hard work to do there but the words matter less than the cries of the heart.

What I’m talking about is putting yourself out there for the whole world to see. I will be the first to admit I didn’t always do the best in English class. I love words and try to do the best I can and especially for those who are reading them. Yet I’m sure there are many people out there who cringe every time they see my grammar, or lack thereof.

I’m sure I’m the only one who ends at least one sentence of every blog post with a preposition! I’m discovering I just want to be true to who God created me to be, ill-placed prepositions, too many adverbs and all.

Now don’t get me wrong, I want to better my writing abilities.  I’m investing my time and energy into growing as a writer. But more important to me than all the grammar in the world is for you to understand we are all created for hard stuff.

We need to grab a hold of how much God loves each of us. I pray, whether I get it right on paper or not, you can see my heart.

I love that God created us to do hard things. He knows despite our weaknesses His strength will shine.

So what weaknesses are you dealing with right now? Do you believe God is bigger than your challenges?

“I am the Lord, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?” Jeremiah 32:27

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

When I am weak in my own human strength it helps me to seek God and realize I need his strength. It opens up my eyes to how much I need Him.

I don’t want my weaknesses to trip other people up but my main concern is to always be authentic with you.

Isn’t it amazing that God isn’t waiting for us to be all spiffy it up and perfect before we come to him and ask for help? When we get a hold of that truth it changes everything. Knowing we can take anything to Jesus is unbelievably freeing.

Now I don’t mean we can continue to live in sin. God expects us to move forward. He loves us right where we are but He also loves us enough to help us change. He gives us the grace to makes the changes needed.

What hard things are you facing right now in your life? How does the knowledge that God made us for hard things and gives us the grace to overcome empower you to face these hard things?

Let me know in the comments how the power of grace is helping you overcome the hard things in your life.

I will be praying for you friend!

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How to Fight the Storm of Fear

“Hurry, load ‘em up!” I hollered over the wind as my young niece and nephew brought their horses to the trailer.

The temperature had dropped as the wind seemed to come up instantaneously. Everyone at the rodeo was desperately trying to get horses and kids rounded up and to safety.

I was just out of high school and was going to the town an hour north of us each week for the women’s and kids’ rodeo. It was a fun evening to look forward to each week. It also gave me an excuse to have my niece and nephew come stay with me for the weekends. It was also a way of getting them out of the situation they were in even if was just temporary.

I had always been a completely fearless person. Often not even exercising enough self caution to prevent way to many injuries to count. Then that storm rolled in and changed everything.

“Grab your ropes and get in the pickup,” I said hurriedly, “I think we can get ahead of this storm and outrun it.”

The sirens were going off in town and I knew there must have been a tornado warning issued. It was so dark the only way to see any of the sky was as the lightning sparked and illuminated it all. As far as I could tell there was nothing on the horizon so plenty of time to get out of there before it got worse.

My niece was concerned but had spent her whole young life with me and snuggled up beside me trusting my decision. It was short lived!

As we rounded the corner out of town the rain started coming down in sheets followed by hail pelting us in full force. Visibility was almost nonexistent at that point.

My poor niece was terrified. I was fighting my own fear welling up in me to calm her down. I was just trying to stay on the road as we inched along.

It came up so fast I didn’t have any time to react. I never saw it coming just the wind hitting us with such ferocity that fear completely overtook me.

The next thing I knew we were being picked up off the road and moved like a little matchbox car to the opposite ditch.

Something died inside of me that night. That fearless girl who believed she was completely invincible realized her own mortality. Fear had set in and the devil was trying to destroy me in new ways since his old ones had failed.

If there was so much as a cloud in the sky while I was outside, my heart would race uncontrollably. I would make every excuse in the world to those around me on why we needed to immediately go in the house. As rancher’s we work outside for a living and this presented a huge problem over the years.

It was especially bad if we were in a vehicle and crippling if I was the one driving.

It may sound like a logical fear but unfortunately it was a foothold for satan to gain ground in other areas of my life. New fears started growing and morphed into daily worries. I became the epitome of a worry wart.

One day, many years later, I was driving home by myself pulling a camper when a storm rolled in fast. My heart felt like it was going to explode it was racing so fast. Rationale was fleeing. Then I remembered a verse I’d chosen to repeat while I was in labor with my first son.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13 (NKJV)

I started repeating it to myself as a way to calm my heart. Also to help turn my focus back on Jesus who had always wanted to heal me of this fear.

The fear started to subside. I was fighting back finally and the devil knew he was in trouble. Through the power of the Holy Spirit I was taking ground back that had been stolen all those years earlier.

You know what, the storm didn’t subside. The wind blew hard and it rained and hailed on me for a good part of the way home. It was dark and scary on the outside but my heart had found firm footing inside and there was no way I was going back!

I love what Kelly Balarie reminds us in her book Fear Fighting – “What didn’t kill you yesterday has no real power to kill you today.”

Unfortunately, I had let fear rob me of the power Jesus had made available to me all those years. So, I exhaled all the fear and inhaled life back into those dry bones.

Does that mean fear never tries to rear it’s ugly head in my life? Of course not, but now I know that where the Spirit is – there is freedom!

~I would love it if you’d visit Fear Fighting Writers Contest and vote for me if this post has encouraged you. Go to the bottom of the page and enter 32 in the comments. Thank you!

If you want to learn more about Kelly Balarie you can visit www.purposefulfaith.com or to order the book go to www.fearfightingbook.com.

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Fear Fighting: Do you Live Fear or Faith?

Please help me welcome Kelly Balarie to the blog this week. 

Just yesterday, my friend told me her daughter has lice. 

I hugged that girl yesterday!

Would lice go from her hair to mine? Would I be cleaning the entire house, washing every sheet and stuffed animal, and pulling a thin comb through every inch of hair on my family’s heads from now until eternity? I can’t handle this thought. Next time, fist bumps will trump hugs.

Fear is the plumbing of discontentment.
It is the spillage of hesitation and loneliness.
It is the brakes to love.
It is the bulldozer to close relationships.
It is the boundary holding you back from God’s unlimited plan for you.

Fear is the rain cloud that always follows, the homicide to all God has, the breeding ground to insecurities, the shortness of breath that wakes you up at night, the cemetery of faith, and the artery blockage to the Spirit’s leading.  Continue reading “Fear Fighting: Do you Live Fear or Faith?”

Christmas is the Story of Jesus’ Love

I shared my Christmas story of Jesus’ love for each of us over at Crystal Stine’s this week and would like to share it with you as well. Please check out Crystal’s page for many more Christmas stories from talented authors this month.

Do you like to celebrate? How about decorating?

Oh my goodness how I love to celebrate and decorate! I’m quite drawn to shiny objects. My kids always joke if I was a fish I’d be the first one caught since I’d be so drawn to the shiny lure.

So you can see why Christmas is right up my alley.

My family has always gone all out for Christmas. I know what you’re thinking. We must have had tons of gifts, thousands of decorations and went to loads of parties. But, not really.

We always had some gifts, decorated a little and got together with friends and family but we had SO much more.  Continue reading “Christmas is the Story of Jesus’ Love”

Joy is Found in God’s Love

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I typed the word joy into my Bible app’s search. There was an overwhelming number of scriptures involving joy. I loved it! What I found interesting was where most of them were concentrated, the Psalms.

I’ve always been fascinated by David. I think because I feel a bit of a connection with him. He was a shepherd who as a child wasn’t even brought in out of the field for Samuel to meet. He was set aside by his family, whether by accident or intention.

David wasn’t simply sitting there feeling sorry for himself. He was doing the work set before him, being faithful in the seemingly small things. He had a warrior spirit!

Then Samuel shows up and anoints him and the Spirit of the Lord came on him from that day on. The boy set aside by humanity was set apart by divinity.  Continue reading “Joy is Found in God’s Love”

Do we crave God above everything?

Five Minute Friday is so much fun for me. No pressure! Simply a word prompt on twitter (#fmfparty) on Thursday night and then write. No over thinking or editing. There is a linkup on Friday at http://katemotaung.com where we can read other’s five minute free write.

This week’s prompt is: CRAVE

Okay, I have to admit, I WAY over thought this prompt! I almost decided not to write anything as I couldn’t decide which direction to go with it. So, I’m simply sitting down to write and see where the words take me.

We all crave. It’s just in us to do so. We’re created that way.

But how many times do our cravings lead us astray?

  Continue reading “Do we crave God above everything?”

It’s Safe to Surrender

Five Minute Friday is so much fun for me. No pressure! Simply a word prompt on twitter (#fmfparty) on Thursday night and then write. No over thinking or editing. There is a linkup on Friday at http://katemotaung.com where we can read other’s five minute free write. This week’s prompt is: SURRENDER

I have a feeling I’m not the only one who has struggled with surrender. Am I right? If you look it up in the dictionary one of the first synonyms for it is submit. Also, not a word I ever had in my vocabulary for years!

To be honest, I often cringed when I heard that word before. I felt like it meant giving up and the stubborn side of me wanted NOTHING to do with. Aren’t we trained to not give up at all costs?  Continue reading “It’s Safe to Surrender”

Enjoy the Process – Blog Anniversary

Five Minute Friday is so much fun for me. No pressure! Simply a word prompt on twitter (#fmfparty) on Thursday night and then write. No over thinking or editing. There is a linkup on Friday at http://katemotaung.com where we can read other’s five minute free write. This week’s prompt is: ENJOY

Ready, set, go….

So, I have fun news to share with you all. It’s been 2 years since I started this blog. I’m super excited. It’s been such a journey and huge learning experience.

I’ll be honest I have enjoyed certain aspects of it more than others. I love to write and am especially fond of just getting my thoughts on paper. On the other hand, editing is the least enjoyable part of the process for me.

Yet for some reason I can get caught up editing as I write which completely kills the flow. I’ve heard it so many times not to edit as I go but I find that extremely difficult. I think that’s why I enjoy the Five Minute Friday free writes so much. It’s right up my alley!  Continue reading “Enjoy the Process – Blog Anniversary”

Purpose in our Pain

God uses all for His purpose

Have you ever thought you had to bandage up the broken pieces of your life before you could be presentable to God?

As I read through my early copy of Ann Voskamp’s book “The Broken Way – a daring path into the abundant life” my heart soared with hope. She shows how our brokenness can lead to abundance.

As I read through the chapters it made me pause and dig into my own brokenness and the abundance God is bringing from it.

So much of my youth was nearly swallowed up by brokenness. Numbness had taken over as I tried desperately to escape my own broken pieces as well as the broken ways of those around me.

One particular day we were vaccinating horses in a run down setup. One young horse I was holding went over the top of me and got caught up in a panel. He and the panel came down hard on my leg. I jumped up and dusted myself off and said I was fine as we went back to work.  Continue reading “Purpose in our Pain”